Being a good friend, I curled my hair, slinked into my favourite saucy (but cute) underwear and applied red lipstick. I also wore a pearl necklace, much to my friends horror as they were the very same that had been recently wrapped around FD's cock!
We had an amazing evening laughing, joking and she left with good test shots and my ego has been boosted to dizzying heights.
I loved helping my friend out and felt confident enough in her presence to look sexy, sultry and let her lens go where no lens has gone before!
This reminded me (somewhat embarrassingly) that last weekend, whilst trying to look sexy in FD's bed he asked to photograph me to "Test lighting and practice!" I flatly refused, despite the flattering compliments and kissing. Friends at work seemed horrified that he had even asked and hoped that I hadn't said yes, but I wondered why. Were they jealous? Was it wrong to be happy enough with my body for me not to care? Or were they just cautious and paranoid that my boobs would end up on Facebook? (It was a genuine worry though)
Now, as I look at the photos I don't see me, but I do see a pretty woman that should be confident and happy with her figure. Unfortunately, it will take more than photos to change my mindset, but it has changed something.
I now wish I had said "Yes!" to FD, if he wants to see me naked and proud enough to take pictures that should of been enough. I am happy for my friend to show her photos (professionally) so if FD had shown them to friends I should have been smug that he would do it, not annoyed or embarrassed!
Maybe if he asks again or if another lover asks in the future I will have the confidence to down clothes and smile :)
Maybe
Xx
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